Today’s blog is in reference to the New Year. I am not a person who says, “New Year, New Me.” Let me explain. I am a person who thrives on life lessons that I learn with all of my experiences. I have experienced many things in my life. We all have our stories. Mine gets really deep. This is not to take away from anyone’s experience. I can only speak to my story.
With that being said. my New Year is filled with how I can make my story better, instead of having resolutions. In recent years, I have experienced a lot. I had many highs and lows. I went through a divorce in 2017. I was demoted from a promotional position in 2018 because of my age, education and because people are threatened by me. I have had a number of setbacks that made me take a long and hard look at myself. I decided going into 2019, I had to let go. That is my biggest goal in 2019. Nearly one month into the year, I have let go.
You might be wondering how I have started letting go. Well, I have personally become more vocal. Being the introverted person that I am, in the past, I have tried to avoid conflict as much as possible. Now, I will tell people what I think and how I feel. Some are not receptive to it because I use to not saying anything. I knew that in order for me to grow, this was one aspect that I needed to change. I have had several encounters in recent weeks where I have had to be vocal.
For example, I have a friend. I love him dearly as a person. We have a long history. However, he can be mean. He means well. He has been supportive of a lot over the years. He says a lot of hurtful things to me. I have started telling him how I feel, which changed the dynamic of our friendship a bit. From our conversations, he does not have the most positive view of me. He asserts his opinion on my flaws. When I bring my feelings to his attention, he can be dismissive. Growing as a person has taught me that I have to love people from a distance.
It does not matter who the person is, no one is exempt from my being honest. It made me happier. Am I always right? No. Do I misinterpret conversations? It is possible that I do. I am a person with flaws. I am constantly growing. With growth comes the need to constantly evaluate and make adjustments accordingly. Being more vocal is one of the many improvements I wanted to make. There are others, but I make the adjustments on a daily basis – not just at New Years. The point of this post is to encourage you to all do the same thing. With growth, as you are evolving, it will take you out of your comfort level. Resolutions are good, however, lets be honest – people rarely stick to resolutions as they intend to. Thus, have the resolve to make adjustments and changes as needed to foster your growth. Think about it. Be blessed ~ Rayne Elise.
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