Hello Everyone,
I hope you are all well today. I know many people have began returning to work post COVID. I in my office two days per week. I am not thrilled, but it is what it is. I am grateful I have a job at all. It has its challenges, since I went back to partially driving and partially commuting. I have to park my car at a local metro station and catch a train to work because it is too expensive to park at my job. I am no longer able to access the garage due to seniority. I am grateful I am teleworking the other days. Remember, I am introverted and I am happier at home and in my own space. I personally feel I am more productive that way since I work at my own pace. I am flexible either way.
Since returning to the office, I am starting to pay for gas again. Since the closures stemming from the coronavirus began, I was lucky if I filled my car up with gas once per month. I do not drive that much, especially if I do not have to. There are a lot of crazy drivers where I live. My city is notorious for car accidents, traffic and horrible roads. Did I also mention there is a lot of construction? Getting back in the groove has honestly been challenging for me.
In the midst of going back to a routine, I am experiencing a lot of extenuating issues that have been impacting me. As I stated in another post, I am having some health issues. I am having surgery this week and I am nervous. I am undergoing a lot of fertility testing. We will see what happens. Additionally, I have been attending various medical appointments with my father. That has been especially taxing too. Multiple appointments can be tiresome, stressful and costly. Please pray for us if you believe in prayer. I need all of the prayer I can get right now. My story gets deep.
Taking on a lot of stress is not good. I am speaking from experience. I am stressed out. I am sure a lot of you are too. I cannot begin to imagine the situations you all are experiencing. If you are struggling mentally like I am, please seek help. In being perfectly honest, my mental health state is fragile and deteriorating. I am dealing with a lot of work in addition to everything else. I am not handling it well. I am near my breaking point. At times, I feel like I am alone. My family members and minimal support system tell me I am not alone. Self care is essential. It is truly something I need to work on. I do not focus on myself enough and it has detrimental consequences. Please take my advice and take heed. Yes I know I need to take my own advice.
I think everyone needs a support system. I am grateful for mine. Without them, I would be worse off than what I am. I like to think that I am a strong person. However I really need strength and more support right now. I have one friend in particular who does call me close to everyday to check on me. He tries hard to cheer me up when i am sad. Unfortunately with everything affecting me at once, my mood has not been good. I will admit I have not been the easiest person to interact with. In my defense, I was dealing with extreme health issues on top of everything else. Don’t worry, I am a little better for now. He calls me Eeyore after the Winnie the Pooh character. I am moody. I will not Iie to you.
I know COVID adversely affected everyone. I am sure we as a whole will never return to normal. We need to do the best we can to adapt to this new normal. Now many companies are requiring vaccines and/or imposing mandates to combat the coronavirus. No matter where you stand on the mask/vaccine debate, please be safe. I am not here to argue about it either way. It is my opinion that everyone needs to protect themselves.
The purpose of this post is to talk about how things are going for everyone post COVID. It is a discussion that is needed. Check in with your family members and friends. Some people might not be okay. Some people, such as myself may struggle to vocalize their feelings and/or seek help for their issues. It is my belief that there are many people struggling in silence. My entire life, I have been made to feel like people do not care about me or my feelings. Over the past several weeks, people have been paying more attention to me and my demeanor. I know I am not the only person who is struggling mentally right now. I am not ashamed to say that.
I pray your situation improves. Whatever you are facing will improve. Please stay strong. Continue to be kind since no one knows what battles another person is facing. Be honest with your mental health. Have honest discussions. Try to adapt to this new normal. Count your blessings. Be blessed. Stay strong. Remember you are loved if no one tells you that. Together, we will make it. Hopefully, COVID-19 (the coronavirus) will be fully eradicated soon. However, we all need to do our part to make sure this happens. I am grateful for your continued love and support. Feel free to email me at emailrayneelise@yahoo.com.
Peace and blessings everyone ~ Rayne Elise
Discovery Journey 