Greetings Everyone,
I hope you are all well today. With everything that has been going on in the world today, it made me think. COVID-19 has affected so many aspects of life as we know it. Things will likely never be the same as they were prior to COVID. I am certain this is the new normal. What now? We continue to evolve and adapt. So many people have passed away within the past couple of years. I have done other posts regarding this topic. Life is short and fleeting. That is why I try hard to treat people good. I show love and compassion as much as possible. While my intentions are good, I am not always successful with the intended purposes. I say all of this to say that no matter what happens to anyone, my conscience is clear.
I often wonder how I will be remembered when I am gone. I know that I do not really want a funeral. My immediate family members have strong opinions about this. I have endured a lot of adversity in my life. I did not receive the best treatment from people. I had a limited number of friends and people I were close to. I never made it a point to get to know people. I don’t like phoniness, nor do I want a lot of signifiers. Remember me how you choose. I hope people remember my better traits more than my flaws. With this mentality, I do not want to live with any regrets.
I have always been the type of person who would settle for anything. Now, I am vocal about how much I am willing to accept. Many people are not thrilled that I finally found my voice; however I decided (1) it was time; and (2) it was crucial to my pursuit of happiness. I have grown a lot and I remain a work in progress. I never really experienced happiness. I am fully aware happiness comes from within. I wish you all find and maintain your happiness. No one can truly make you happy, but yourself. Remember happiness is a choice. I am happier than I have ever been. I attribute this to counting my blessing more than my problems as well as being grateful that I am still alive. We never know when our earthly journey will end, which is why I try to be cognizant of my purpose.
First I had to learn how to love myself. No one will ever love you more than you love you. The best relationship you can have is with yourself. This was a hard lesson I learned. Once this is mastered, everything else falls into place. I am learning to put myself first more; focus on me and to set boundaries and limits with people. I do more of what makes me happy.
My sister and I were having a conversation about this very topic this evening. Everyone knows someone who is very miserable. Remember the adage that misery loves company. For most of my life, this as me. In fact I can recall a conversation with my best friend from several years back when he told me that he thought I enjoyed being miserable, hurt and unhappy. It deeply saddened me that he had that negative perception of me. I knew I had to change. This was especially the case after my divorce. Fie years later, I am not as happy as I could be, but it is an improvement.
I wish nothing but the best for everyone. I wish you all think long and hard about your happiness. Life is too short to be unhappy. Count your blessings instead of your problems. Keep striving. Thank you all again for your continued love and support. It means a lot. I love you all. Stay blessed. Pursue happiness.
Peace, love and joy!
❤ Rayne Elise ❤
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