Greetings Everyone, I hope you are all well today. This blog post will be a little different. As you might know, I am very spiritual. I identify as a Christian. I was raised Baptist Christian (by way of my mother) and Seventh Day Adventist (by way of my father). I identify with elements of both. I have friends and family in every religious background. I enjoy learning about different religions and I encourage you all to write in to enlighten me.
This is my open prayer……
Dear God, I humbly thank you for the life you have given me. I am blessed to still be alive despite some health scares and suicide attempts. You know my story and you understand my heart. I have experienced a lot, as you know. I am learning how to trust you more. I need to better understand that everything happens according to Your plan and Your timing. I also understand the teacher is always silent during the test. I have learned, and I firmly believe, that we are not immune to the trials and tribulations of life. I try hard to play the hand that has been dealt to me. I have held on for a while. Yes, there are times when I feel like giving up, but for whatever reason, you are keeping me here. God, please give me the strength to continue to endure life’s challenges. I am asking for your strength and wisdom. I am learning how to better navigate through this thing we call life. I want to eventually use my story to help and empower others, as I am still learning how to heal and matriculate.
Lord, help me to understand the lessons that you are trying to teach me. Help me live according to your plan and purpose. At times, I wish I understood my purpose. I do however believe there is a purpose for my pain. Help me to remain focused. I want to become a better, more grounded person. Help me in my daily interactions. Teach me to say and think the best possible things, despite the circumstances. Please forgive me for my sins and transgressions. Please help me to not be as hard on myself. I am still human. I have various feelings and opinions and I make mistakes. I am flawed. I have good intentions. I wish more people saw the good in me and understood me. It is my desire to have my own residence. I pray to no longer be struggling financially, I want to be debt free. I want to work at a job I love and/or . I want my mental health status to improve. I don’t want to be depressed or have anxiety more as I suffered from both ailments for the majority of my life. I want to be happy. Yes I understand happiness is a choice.
I pray for everyone worldwide. God, I want to live in a world where there are no wars. I pray for peace.. I pray people no longer suffer. I believe heavily in healing the world and making it a better place. It is my wish that we as people come together. I love everyone. I wish that love was reciprocated worldwide. I pray for those who are ill. I pray for those who have no families. I pray for those who are impoverished. I pray for the sick, afflicted and shut in. I pray for those who are depressed. I pray for those who are ready to give up. I pray for those who want to do more to make a change. I pray for those who don’t know where to turn. I know you, God will make a way out of no way. I pray you can reach more people who believe in You. I pray for mental health therapists and Social Workers who listen to people’s problems, even when they have so many of their own. The burn out is real God.
I pray for my family, especially the youngest generation. I wish my family would all come together. I have not seen many of my relatives in years (especially on my father’s side of the family). I wish we could all reconnect. I pray for healing within the family structures. I pray for all of my friends, especially the close circle I have. I am thankful for those who have stood by my side through some of the hardest times of my life. I am grateful for those in my circle who know and understand my plight and my issues, but they choose to love me anyway. I am thankful for those who remain patient with me. I acknowledge that I am not the easiest person to deal with. I pray that I am one day to resolve some of my issues. I desire motherhood. If it is in Your will.
I pray jobs get better. I wish humanism is put back in human resources instead of profits and productivity. As a public servant in the helping profession, I pray jobs do more to understand the plight of the employee. I pray more people find their happiness. I pray more people heal and find their happiness. I pray there is less hatred and suicide. I pray more is done to promote holistic wellness.
Thank you for the blessings you have bestowed upon us. Let us not forget that. Thank you for your unwavering love. This and all blessings we ask in your sweet, holy name, Amen.
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